The Words in Your Head

 “In imagination she sailed over storied seas that wash the distant shining shores of “faëry lands forlorn,” where lost Atlantis and Elysium lie, with the evening star for pilot, to the land of Heart’s Desire. And she was richer in those dreams than in realities; for things seen pass away, but the things that are unseen are eternal.”

I’m quite good at imagining. I always have been. To Anne Shirley, as described above, imagining is dreams, games, and just something wonderful to do. Imagining is a game, and something I enjoy, but it is also stories. It’s one of the many ways I write my stories–there is a flaw to this method however though.

Imagine - NYC

Imagine – NYC (Photo credit: Phillips_Jon)

I’m also quite good at having words flow from my head, making up stories as I walk along the sidewalk, or stare up at the ceiling at twelve in the morning, but when I’m plopped in front of a computer and keyboard, everything flies out of my head. It’s unfortunate and makes me wish for a literally tiny computer—not a iPod touch, but a miniature laptop—I could carry around in my pocket. Maybe the keyboard could even unfold to a normal size.

Also unfortunately, I’m not an inventor. I leave this idea to you, inventors of the world.

No really. Please invent it. I’d love it. Heck, maybe there is even something like that out there.

However, back to point. It’s incredibly hard to get the words out of my head, and on to a screen. I am not sure why. I lose them easily, and maybe I’m even a bit self conscious when typing them out, even though no one is reading them. However I read them, and I squirm, and wonder if they really are all that good.

And we all know one of our worst critics is ourselves.

NaNoWriMo even has a name for this—Your Inner Editor—and instructs you to hand it over to them so they can lock it away for a month.

I’m not even sure if that’s the core issue, my inner Editor. I just have a habit of…not blanking exactly, but something else I can’t quite pinpoint, in front of the computer—I didn’t used to do that as much, so it leads me to believe it perhaps started with my Editor being an annoyance and then promptly turned into a habit.

Does anyone else have this problem? Why? How do you deal with it? I’d love to hear in the comments below!

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TCWT Blog Chain: This is Deep

“What is your ultimate goal as a writer?”

“But we’re so careful to put a moral into them all, Marilla,” explained Anne. “I insist upon that. All the good people are rewarded and all the bad ones are suitably punished. I’m sure that must have a wholesome effect. The moral is the great thing. Mr. Allan says so. I read one of my stories to him and Mrs. Allan and they both agreed that the moral was excellent. Only they laughed in the wrong places. I like it better when people cry. Jane and Ruby almost always cry when I come to the pathetic parts. Diana wrote her Aunt Josephine about our club and her Aunt Josephine wrote back that we were to send her some of our stories. So we copied out four of our very best and sent them. Miss Josephine Barry wrote back that she had never read anything so amusing in her life. That kind of puzzled us because the stories were all very pathetic and almost everybody died. But I’m glad Miss Barry liked them. It shows our club is doing some good in the world. . . .”

Is this my goal is a writer? Like young Anne’s, to bring morals into stories, and have them be “doing some good in the world”?

I’m not sure. Partly. Sometimes. Sometimes I write and hope the stories will touch people’s hearts, and inspire them to understand my view, or the beauty of the world. Sometimes I want them to understand the different kinds of heartache people feel–sometimes this heartache is something they would disprove of. The heartache of loving your own gender, of being a ‘wrong’ religion, or of being kicked of land and treated as though you’re the invaders.

But sometimes I write because I’m selfish. I love to see the words forming worlds of steam, fluffy romances, and young detectives.

My goal is sometimes just entertain myself. Like a TV show, writing in a roleplay(John, me and Jasmine shall try to get you that post!) makes me laugh, cry and sometimes just marvel at the worlds we have created. It makes me proud, and I feel like we deserve a fan Tumblr. I’ve made friends on there, ones that I will treasure forever–some of us talk about anything and everything, others I mainly just roleplay with.

But this isn’t about roleplaying.

Sometimes I write because, heck, I always wanted to write a book with Sherlock Holmes having a cameo, and sometimes I just want to write because the world is just beautiful and I want to write something inspiring, and sometimes I feel like I want to slam my computer screen down because the news is just so depressing and then I write.

I guess my goal is…to make people…enjoy. listen. and read.

 

 Participants:

5th – http://miriamjoywrites.wordpress.com/

6th – http://www.inklinedwriters.blogspot.com/

7th – http://www.paulinaczarnecki.wordpress.com/

8th – http://insatiablebeforedeath.wordpress.com/

9th – http://musingsfromnevillesnavel.wordpress.com/

10th – https://avonsbabbles.wordpress.com/

11th – http://theloonyteenwriter.wordpress.com/

12th – http://insideliamsbrain.wordpress.com/

13th – http://kirstenwrites.wordpress.com/

14th – http://creatingtherenaissance.wordpress.com/

15th – http://charactercentral.wordpress.com/

16th – http://realityisimaginary.blogspot.com/

17th – http://www.novelexemplar.wordpress.com/

18th – http://charlieeatmybook.blogspot.co.uk/

19th – http://zarahoffman.tumblr.com/

20th – http://thelittleenginethatcouldnt.wordpress.com/

21st – http://theangelicauburn.wordpress.com/

22nd – http://eatwritedie.blogspot.com/

23rd – http://writerbewildered.blogspot.com/

24th – http://veewhoa.wordpress.com/

25th – http://www.alwaysweavingwords.blogspot.com/

26th – http://anqiyu.wordpress.com/

27th – http://bloodoverithaca.wordpress.com/ 

28th – http://incessantdroningofaboredwriter.wordpress.com/

29th – http://teenscanwritetoo.wordpress.com/ (We’ll announce the topic for next month’s chain)

Blog of the Year Award

I’ve gotten a blog award from Orphu44. My very first blog award! I shall proceed to run around the room excitedly.

Alright, I’m back. And still excited. Thank you so much Oprhu44!

Now, first of all, the rules.

Rules

1. Display the award logo on your blog.
2. Link back to the person who nominated you.
3. Link back to the Blog of the Year 2012 Rules page so people can read the real, complete, and fully accurate rules of this slightly different blogger award.
4. State 5 things about yourself.
5. Pass the award onto 6 other bloggers and link to one of their specific posts so that they get notified by pingback.

Here’s the original — The Thought Palette.

Now! Five things about the amazing Avon. Let’s see….

1. Eoin Colfer once said I was intensely cool. Or, rather…

Horse Sense. That’s me. Probably one of the best compliments I’ve ever received. Seriously. I could hardly breath when I read that.

2. I get so confused when it comes to my left and right hands. Or feet.

3. I’m writing a musical based on a roleplay I’m in. Something tells me I’m too into this role-play…

4.  I’ve only opened one present so far, and I have three left. Applaud my self-control.

5. I’m thinking of auditions now, and feeling a bit sick. I hate auditions.

And now my Award Receivers!

1. Jasmine from Between the Lines. ‘ello, fellow Shifter! Someday I’ll see you published, I just know it.

2. Annika from Beyond The Moon. My other fellow Shifter! You write such wonderful characters– Demi and Kyrie are both so good, yet so different.

3. Kiwi from Ramblings of a Kiwi Young Writer. Thank you for commenting so much!

4. Shim from Magic and Writing. You’re awesome. Thanks for participating in Character Interviews!

5. NevilleFan from A Teenage Writer. She happens to be my first follower! Thanks!

6. And one to Gabrielle at the Humble Abode of Gabblemac. I don’t know you that well…but you wrote a good review about Anne of Green Gables, so you deserve it.

Merry Christmas or whatever December Holiday you celebrate!

The Blank Page

The first post. The feeling of staring at a blank screen that all some writers hate. We stare, and think, and do multiple head-desks as we try to get that first line right.

The first line the will decide if the reader continues to read or not. Or in the case of a unpublished author, if the agent will.

This post feels much like that. Will you continue to read my blog, or will you just click to the next blog you’re browsing through?

 “Yes, I have only a few pages written, but I have it all pretty well thought out. I’ve had such a time to get a suitable plot. None of the plots that suggested themselves suited a girl named AVERIL.”